Losing the faith

I no longer believe in the presence of a higher being. I used to think that maybe, just maybe there is a slight possibility of someone higher up but after the lost of my friend, I don’t believe that there’s anyone up there anymore. I know a lot of people who believe in God and I don’t have a problem with any of that. They’re free to believe in any religion that they want. Some of them are good and they stick to their own religion and they don’t force it on me to convert. But slowly, I’m starting to think that religion is a herd of blind sheep following an invisible Sheppard.

I don’t want to offend anyone by saying what I believe in but I’m just expressing my opinion. It’s an opinion that seems to get stronger and stronger with every negative event that occurs. Some might think that I’m only saying this because I’m angered by the loss of my friend. If that is the case, then yes, I believe what I believe in because he was taken away at such a young age. He was a young and talented guy whose life was just beginning. He lost his life before it even started. Parents are not supposed to outlive their children. Your parents are supposed to see you grow into an adult and live the life that they dreamed you’d live. I believe it’s wrong for a parent to bury their child. It shouldn’t be that way.

There are a lot of things that I don’t approve of in a God driven world. There’s too much evil in this world to believe that it is control by a good creator. A lot of bad things happen to good people all the time. Why are there innocent people dying because greedy people want their share of the riches? You spend your whole life doing good things and hope that karma returns the favour but in the end you find out that there’s no such thing as “what goes around comes around.” You can do all the good things that you want but you won’t get rewarded for your kind deed. You can do all the evil things you want and you don’t have to worry about spending the rest of your after life in damnation.

I just don’t understand how people can believe in something with blind faith. There’s a book that lists a set of rules for you to follow and if you follow them, you will be rewarded when you die. Wouldn’t avoiding death so you can spend more time with your family be award? No. If God wants you in Heaven, then you’re going. It’s his will and “thy will be done.” It’s all part of his divine plan and he has created for is. I fail to understand the purpose of giving us free will when he’s already got a plan for us. How are we to have free will when God already has something planned for us? It’s not free will if we’re doing something that someone planned us to do. Something just doesn’t sound right.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1

If I don’t see it then it’s hard to believe it that it’s there. If there’s a substance that doesn’t make itself known, how am I supposed to believe that there’s something there. If someone one lets out a fart, I don’t see it but I can smell it. If I can smell it, I can probably take a guess as to where it came from. With God, you can’t see him, feel him, touch him but he’s supposedly there. Some people say that they feel that he’s everywhere but they have nothing to back that up. They just have faith and believe that it’s there.

Sometimes, it’s comforting to know that there might be a God. When you’re sitting in the dark all by yourself and you start to get scared, it’s nice to know that you’re not actually alone. God is watching over you to make sure that you’re safe. As it is, there are too many people that believe in God’s existence so I cannot deny the fact that he’s not real. I may sound like I’m a fool who’s closing the door on the possibility that there is a God but in the end, all I’m looking for is a reason to believe. I don’t want to be rewarded for believing. I just want to know, that’s all.

4 replies on “Losing the faith”

  1. I saw that there was a lecture at McMaster about a philosophy prof who was arguing that there was no god, so you’re not alone in wondering if there is one or not. But his argument was that god didn’t care if people were good or bad because he would sort them out when everyone died. So good people would go to heaven and bad people would go to hell. And I think his argument was that since god wouldn’t bother us (cuz he would sort us out later), we wouldn’t really know about him or anything and so we would be wanting to do everything selfishly. (ex. theft, adultery, drugs, gambling) I thought it was actually a good argument. And he says that despite the assumption that eveyrone would get caught up in these acts, people still have morals and we still have good samaritans. I kind of wish that I had gone to that lecture, but it had already passed when I heard about it. But you’re not alone in this, Don. A lot of people wonder about a higher being. When I think about it, I’m not quite sure even what I believe. 😛

  2. I totally agree with you Don…There’s no one up there… if there was we woulndn’t lose so many good people. For those who believe in him…stop smoking crack…there’s nothing up there…it’s just outerspace….and stop using his name in vain to commit more wrong doings…There’s no heaven…you’re all going to hell

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