Once in a while I would sit down at my desk and I would stare at my computer screen. I wouldn’t do anything else but stare. The hard drive would be clicking, music is playing, people are signing into MSN and I would be staring. My mind would be a complete blank but I know that my brain is rapidly working on something. Then comes this mysterious sensation of wonder. A desire to know the answer to some unknown question. A need to solve life’s mysteries.
We are just ordinary people living out ordinary lives. We wake up, brush our teeth, wash our faces and head out for work. We come home, grab something to eat, watch some television and then go to bed. The next day, the process repeats itself with the addition of going to the washroom and doing your business every once in a while. Is that all there is to it? We just live from day to day, doing the same thing we do every day? There has to be more to life than that. There has to be some sort of purpose, a reason why we are here in the first place. Given the fact that humans have plague this planet, wage war against each other and slowly exhausting its natural resources, it’s amazing that we’re still here.
People who are religious already have the reason for why they are here. God put them here and so they are here to do his bidding. I don’t know exactly what God does but whatever it is, He has a powerful influence on it. Christians would follow the Bible because it contains all of the answers to their lives. Muslims follow the Qur’an because it contains all of the answers to their lives. A lot of them are very devoted into their religion and nothing that anyone can do will steer them away.
Then you have someone like me. I’m caught somewhere in the middle of being Agnostic and Atheist. I don’t know if there is a God but I sense that there might be. We live in a material world where everything is made of matter and energy. Anything that can’t be detected is either an hallucination or non-existent. But there isn’t enough evidence to prove that God is fake albeit there isn’t enough evidence to prove he’s real either. Proof that God exists is based on faith. But once in a while, you get this feeling that there’s someone or something out there watching over you. But how do you prove what you cannot see.
We all know that wind exists because we can feel it. But you can’t actually see it. When it’s snowing, you can see the wind blowing the snow but you can’t actually see the wind itself. But you can feel it so it exists. We can’t see God but sometimes we feel something. We can’t prove it’s God because we have no idea what he looks like. I don’t think he looks like us. To say that God created us in his image is a little arrogant, if you ask me. But what exactly did he create us for?
According to Charles Darwin, God did not create us. We came to be the way we are because of evolution. Basically, he’s saying we’re here to evolve into a higher life form. The two basic mechanisms for the changes are natural selection and genetic drift. In genetic drift, heritable traits are changed randomly. In natural selection, the traits that are passed onto the next generation are the traits that help the organism survive. The traits that are considered to be an advantage are passed on while anything that might be a disadvantage slowly disappears. This is what’s known as “survival of the fittest.”
A coworker of mine once told me that she believes that we are here to help each other. Sounds simple enough right? Well, not quite because there’s a bit of a twist. As soon as you’ve helped that one person you’re destined to help, you die. That’s not a fair trade if you ask me. If I’m going to die after I’ve helped someone, I’m going to think twice before helping anyone. I might not even help them at all because I fear for my own life.
Her influence for this ideology was her grandmother. She believed that her grandmother was there to help her in her life. As soon as her grandmother had helped her enough, she passed away. She believed that her grandmother has provided the help that God sent her to do and now God wants her back in heaven. I think that’s more of a coincident rather than the fact that God needed her upstairs.
This could or could not be true but that all depends on your perspective. Everyone has their own ways of interpreting signs and signals. If they see it differently than you, it doesn’t mean that they’re wrong. I’m sure they have a valid reason for thinking that way.
No matter how much we ponder about something as complicated as this, we will never come up with a final answer. As soon as we’ve reached that answer, there will be more questions. With more questions come more doubts. And with more doubts comes confusion. In the end, you won’t have any idea what your initial answer was. What you do with your life is your choice. Just make sure that you make the most out of it.