No sleep

It’s about 3:30am and I’m wide awake. Usually, I don’t sleep until this time anyway but the thing is, I have to be up in an hours to get ready for work. I’ve been trying to get to bed since 11:00pm but I can’t seem to fall asleep. I hate it when this happens. By the time my alarm goes off, I’ll probably still be wide awake. And by the time noon hits, I’ll probably be really drowsy. That’s not a good state to be in when you’re at work. It makes it really hard to focus.

I don’t really like to sleep much because it seems as if it’s a waste of time. Sometimes it takes a couple of hours before I fall asleep. Other times I’m out like a light as soon as I hit my bed. I don’t know why I do this but it’s starting to get a bit annoying. I don’t like it when I feel tired in the middle of the afternoon. I want to feel tired during the night so I can be well rested and feeling refresh in the morning.

When I was younger, I would be up by 5:00am and wouldn’t feel tired at all. I didn’t even need coffee to help me wake up. Once 5:00am hits, I’m out of bed with no hesitation. Now that I’m older, it feels as if all I want to do is sleep. When the alarm goes off, all I do is hit the snooze button a few hundred times. Since I left high school, I’ve been sleeping in until noon. I’d admit that it does feel nice to not have to worry about waking up early everyday. But then I started realizing that I’ve already wasted half of the day.

Some may say that you can make up for the lost hours during the night but what can you really do during the night. The night life can be really relaxing at times because it’s really quiet out but there’s not much you can really do. I have errands that I need to run during the day because that’s when businesses are open. I find that I get a lot more done by waking up at 8:00am than I would if I was to wake up around noon.

By the time I get up at noon, my body is way out of sync with the day. I would be eating breakfast around 1:00pm, skip lunch and not eat again until some time around midnight. And then I wouldn’t sleep again until the sun comes up. I don’t want to keep doing this but it’s hard to get out of this routine. The fact that I don’t have to worry about getting up early for anything allows me to stay up late. My work schedule isn’t helping either. I work at 7am on one day and then I do the night shift on the other days. And when you work the night shift, you end up sleeping the whole day.

I think I’m under the impression that I get more work done during the night than I would during the day. It’s a lot quieter at night because everyone is asleep and there aren’t any distractions. In some cases that is true. When you need to get some work done, it’s best to be in a working environment. Something about the working environment gets you into that state of mind where all you want to do is work. When you’re at home, you just want to spend time with your family and relax. And, of course, during the night, you can’t spend time with the family because they’re all asleep.

I’m going to have to work on getting my sleep routine back on schedule. Staying up late isn’t going to help me much. My brain needs to rest as well as my body. I prefer to be sleeping like the rest of the western hemisphere. Hopefully, I can get an hour of sleep now and maybe another hour while I’m on the bus to work. Then after work I can get the remainder of the sleep I need.

I really hate these sleepless nights.