Karma, my ass

What the hell is wrong with this world! Why do things happen they way they do. I don’t know who controls the events that go on but I think they are doing a bad job at it. Things happen for a reason but that reason is not even reasonable. There are no logical explanations for the logics behind these reasonings. I am getting sick and tired of it too. Things just do not seem to go my way.

Can someone explain to me why I am always late the one day that I need to be on time? A few days ago, I had to take the bus to work. The one day that I needed to get to the bus station on time, is the one day that I forget my wallet at home. I ran back home quickly and I tried to run back to catch that bus. I ran so hard that I ended up coughing a lot. So much that I can taste blood in my mouth. I was minutes away from the bus station when I see the bus sailing pass me. How the hell does that happen? I am only minutes away and the bus is gone.

As I am typing this, I am sitting in from of the Brantford Farmers Market, freezing my ass off and probably getting frostbite from typing. It just so happens that I missed the bus. Again! I was right on the corner when the bus left. And you know the drivers, they do not wait for nobody.

I started work early just so I can leave in time to catch the bus. This bus usually arrives at the station late but the one day that I am late, it arrives early. What the hell is the reasoning behind that? I started work early for no reason. I even bought a bus ticket early too, but now it is just going to go to waste.

It’s things like this that makes me believe that there is no higher being living up in the heavens. That karma is just something some guy made up because he was searching for enlightment. All my life, I have been a good person, helping out when I can, where I can and as much as I can. I even help out stranger that I don’t even know. I do that very often during my days. But when is it my turn to have something good done onto me? I do not recall anything big ever happen yet. I have not even hit it large at winning the lottery. I have not seen any kind of windfall land on my lap.

If this karma stuff is for real, then I must have been one bad mofo in my past life to be getting all the shit I am getting now. I do not think I deserve any of this. I believe I should be getting better. Sometimes, I just get the urge to just let it all out and just let hell break loose. I am getting to the point where I don’t really give a shit anymore. I am sorry if I am sounding like an ass right now, but I just need to vent. If I vent outside, I am afraid someone will get hurt. At least this way, it’s just words. So in the near future, please be advised that I may go kamikaze on you at any given time. You have been warned.